~They are the greatest things ever existed. If you don't believe me go search for them. Victorian Parasols. Asian Parasols.

~They have unique designs.

~THey are very different.

~Just To DIe FOr.

~Believe me.

~I'm still me....i'm feeling crappy. I think I should go out side and see if boyfriend is out there. ugh..

~ School started. I have nothing much to say, other than Fvck the parents. At least mine. This sounds so childish, but I still live with parents. It's complicated to live a life with your parents all over you bussiness when your 18!!! What if I was 20 or 26 would they still treat me this way? of course I have no Idea if I'm going to still be living with my fvking parents. My life is hectic, full of angst, hopeless... I have issues. I wished I had a job, that paid me well enough to go live on my own. It's my second year in college, and I still have the same fvked up life as I did in high school. It's shitty. I wish there was something I could do about it and end with this whole dramatic situation.

~ I'm still in the Goth scene. Still listen to the same Goth music. I'm not whyning. I love it. It's the best that I've ever had in my whole life. I'm still with my boyfriend. It's going to be 6 months on October 29th. He's the only insight happiness in my life.

~ I have No best friend.Best friends don't exist, sooner or later your "best friend" is going to backstab you or betray you. There's only one thing anyone must know and do: Don't Lie. Lies kill friendship. If you did something tell the person that you did it. Unless that person is a killer then don't tell. >)

~It would really be much more better without all those idiots trying to convert you into their religion. But more idiots are those who follow them where ever they go about. It is only fair that you get to choose your own destiny, your own beliefs, your own self.

~I find it very much lovely to say that you dislike that one person instead of hate that person. It is not their fault for being the way they are. They just are different and acceptance is the answer.

Sorry but I'm not going to be posting any blogs during the next 2 weeks. My stupid father grounded me. He said I was using the internet too much and that I couldn't use it anymore unless I was using the internet for school reports or something like that. Which fuken sucks! ::evil:: What else.... I think I'm going to just kick his ass one day. yep. that's what I'll do. One day...

~^v^Death is everywhere^v^~

~^v^Respect it with all Your might^v^~

Eh..After a long day I came to figure out that I was under stress.... nothing to panic/worry about, everything it's OOookKK....::for now::hehe::.....I'm not Dead yet. So Sad...:}

Anyway, does anybody have a good Idea of where should Greg and I go for Saturday? I have to be home between 10-11pm. We runned out of Ideas.

Oh I have another site for all who reads my blogs. It still needs pictures, and few designs, but you are welcome to view it. http://profiles.myspace.com/users/5322279" title="http://profiles.myspace.com/users/5322279" target="_blank"http://profiles.myspace.com/u... If you deside to view it please give me some ideas to what I can do to the site. Thank you... >[

~^v^ Dry^v^~

I feel so lonely......sad.....dry....afraid.....and I have no idea why.

I feel like crying so bad :cry: I just can't keep going this way. I've been this way since last week or so...this is so sad. I think that this might affect my relationship with Greg.... I have issues. I'm so insecure of things right now. I don't know what to do. What to do, what to do.... All I can do is stop talking to everybody and stop chatting with everybody.......I don't understand people. They blame on me. They make me feel guilty. What can I do? What is this? What do I have? Why am I like this? Why do I feel this way?.......

Tell me. You. The so called stranger. Tell me what is this that I suffer from.